>> Friday, February 24, 2012
Losing Milo was absolutely devastating to every member of our family. The girls were excited to have a new brother or sister to play with and Matt and I couldn't wait to spoil another little one with love. Sometimes things don't work out the way we want though. Maybe devastating is an understatement.
I had so many sweet emails and cards sent to me after I posted our birth story. Too many of us in this painful sisterhood and my heart breaks for each and every one of you. Thank you for reaching out to me.
A Fed Ex truck pulled into my driveway and dropped off a package from Seeds of Life. I had not ever heard of them before but knew the package was from my best friend Trista who told me to watch for something coming. The girls and I opened the carefully packed parcel to find a beautiful Magnolia tree.
Then I saw the plaque and I was overwhelmed with sadness, joy, and gratitude all at the same time. To see our Milo's name on that plaque made me miss the baby I had hoped to hold and raise. The tree will be planted in our yard and I am so thankful and happy that my dear friend thought of our family and gave us such a meaningful, heartfelt gift.
Each time I look at our tree I will think of our son and know that we will be together again someday. When sadness fills my heart I will gaze out and see our tree full of gorgeous white flowers and I will feel the love and caring of an old friend. A hug when I need it from across the miles.