>> Saturday, May 14, 2011
At least the way that they are supposed to in your mind? In my mind and heart I was supposed to be delivering a baby next week but that is not going to happen. In my mind there was supposed to be another post announcing that we were joyously pregnant again. Unfortunately that will not be happening either. My body is sitting in limbo right now caught between being pregnant and needing to miscarry. My u/s last Tuesday showed that the there was just a sac when I should have been 6 weeks along. Now I wait and hope that it will happen soon. May is turning out to be really hard this year. Thankfully I have so much love, laughter, and happiness in my life to get me through these long days. Our three beautiful girls don't give me much opportunity to be sad and feel sorry for myself. I have a wonderful husband who loves me and holds me close even on my very worst days when I am horrible to be around. Although I know that I am blessed beyond words I am just going to say that this sucks. Excuse my french.