Mary

There was a knock at the door and my Great Grandmother got up to answer, it was my Grandfather and he had bad news; that evening my Mother was killed in an accident. She was the passenger of a truck that went off the road and she was thrown from the vehicle and died. The family all started arriving shortly after that, there were many tears shed that night but not from me. If my memory is correct I walked around telling everyone that it would be ok but that is trying to remember back 32 years and I am not sure if they are my own memories or those that have been told to me over the years. I unfortunately did not know my mother to grieve for her that night, she was mother by name only.

It used to make me so angry that she left me as a baby, never intending to come back and care for me as a mother should. As I grew older though and went through my own highs and lows I understand that she might not have been in a very good place in her life to care for 2 girls. However, after having babies I can't imagine how a mother would ever just drop her daughter off and not come back and get her. I don't know if she ever visited because I have no memories of them if she did. There is 1 surviving photo of her and I and as far as I know it is the only one EVER taken.

When tragedy strkes a family like this there are many children who don't get as lucky as I did. My Great-Grandparents kept me with them, as it had always been, and I had a wonderful home to be raised in that was filled with love. Many times there isn't a person in the family able to care for the children and they are sent into foster care, my heart breaks for those kids.

I did not even know until this year the actual day that she died, it just didn't seem to matter to me. Who knows how life would have been different had she survived the accident as the driver did, maybe she would have come back for me and my sister I would like to think so anyway. Today on the anniversary of her death I would just like to thank her for choosing life for a daughter that was a huge mistake at the time. I would also like to thank her so much for choosing to leave me with my Great-Grandparents, a more loving home couldn't be found.

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Weekend Recap

Well the weekend wasn't a total loss, although we had a rough time up in Asheville Saturday, Matt and I took the girls to the park early Sunday morning for awhile. It was beautiful outside and there was only 1 other person at the park with his son and it was funny because I knew him (well his son that is). His mama used to come to our playgroup, not sure why she quit because we weren't ever REALLY close but I liked her and will probably shoot her an email today to say "Hi!". It was Violet's first time on the swings, normally Sleeping Beauty doesn't wake up from her spot on my back but today she did and she LOVED (!!) it! Quick little set of pictures to watch - painless I promise :) Piper found her pockets and walked around most of the time with her hands in them and check out the shot of Violet's teeth. YES!! We are finally sleeping more than 1-2 hours!

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So I will be having BIG HUGE fun tonight. It is my favorite time of year - consignment sale shopping time!! We really want need a lot of things and since I am volunteering on Thursday I get to go to one of the largest sale's presale. Woohoo! Seriously, now with Piper in school she does need a few things and we seldom buy new at the Zoo so these sales are perfect for us.

Just wanted to also post a quick picture of the costume my daughter was supposed to wear for the bug parade at the OrganicFest we went to on Saturday - we did not put her in the parade because the day was going that bad (for her father and I not the girls). Anyway, how.cute.is.she???



Last thing before I go, don't forget about the contest that Adventures in Babywearing is having where Steph is giving away a Rocking Baby Sling. It ends tonight so get yourself signed up because they are such great slings - you won't be sorry!

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Wordless Wednesday - Sisters

Here is a photo of my sister and I, I was Piper's age here and Jenny was 18 months older. The second is a picture of our girls who are just shy of 18 months apart. Family has been on my mind a lot lately so that is why I chose these as my Wordless Wednesday photos, and I just got a bunch of my old photos scanned in :)

For more Wordless Wednesday fun check out 5 Minutes for Mom and join in!

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